Apparently, you have ascended o’er the “moved on” obstacle that confounded brother Poe, and thereby taken his legacy to “the next level.”
His tell-tale heart must have beaten a path to your mystical-literary persona.
As for “L.S.D” . . . been there, done that, back in early ‘70’s college days. Assessment: nothing more than an easily-romanticsible enhancement of neurons.
Real life is, although not nearly as exciting, in the long run much more satisfying and productive, especially if one finds, as I did, a 40-year spouse. We are preparing for the marriage feast of the lamb. If the EMP blows all this present arrangement to smithereens . . . not to worry, we go to a place prepared for us. You gotta believe.